new years resolution
Wednesday, February 27, 2019 
12:51:00 AM ♥
I'm half into my final (6th) year of medical school, I've got about 2 weeks till my finals, and it's only 2 months into 2019 but my life's falling apart pretty quickly than ever. I thought I had everything figured out before January came, but clearly I didn't. But it's not too late to start over, is it?
Let's get real. These resolutions aren't anything new. We hear about them all the time, I've had these as my new years resolutions every year, but evidently gave up half way into those past years. This year, it's gonna be, it should be, different. It just has to. I'm turning 24 this year, I'm gonna graduate soon, and I'll need to get my crap together before I can manage any possible future jobs or responsibilities I might have to hustle through.
1. lose weight
No, I'm not overweight. But I did get my body checked some time ago around end of December, and my body fat percentage has increased 10%. I can't say I don't know how that happened, because I've been slacking off and sleeping a lot. And yes, binge eating a lot of junk food too. So my goal this year is not to lose weight per se, but more to lose fat, and increase my body muscle to fat ratio.
I hate seeing myself in the mirror these days and I can't stand getting my pictures taken because they always turn out bad (especially when I'm standing next to my taller, thinner peers). Some people might say I need to practice self love, but I need to feel confident in my own skin in order for me to love myself. And I can't, and don't feel confident looking and feeling like a walking flabby piece of garbage.
by the end of this year, I should have more muscle to fat ratio, and I'm confident to say that my confidence will also follow. Look out people, I might havetoo chiseled jawline that could cut you in pieces by the end of this year. (okay, I know that's impossible, but hey, a girl can dream)
2. eat healthy
I'm an instant noodle addict and I know it. I need to slow down on the instant noodle before I run out of them (I wont fly back home till the end of this year, so my Malaysian food stocks are my current prized possessions).
I started dieting early this year, eating only chickens (strips or grilled chicken breats) & salads consisting mainly of lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers & sometimes broccoli. I dont have any problem eating them without any dressing or condiment, but the moment I get a taste something that's remotely flavourful to me, I start binging, and all my dieting has come to waste.
so my plan is to eat, in moderate. I'll start measuring my portions, and I wont fill in my pantry with unhealthy junk food anymore anytime I do grocery shopping. Easy. I'll also try to fast as frequent as I can (to lose weight, to eat less, and to also prepare myself for the upcoming holy month of Ramadhan)
3. get clear skin
My skin is not so problematic, my face only breaks out when it's around that time of the month, or when I'm in immense stress. But I've been so stress lately that I just neglect washing my face and just went straight to bed, only to wake up to a flaky, gloomy dull, looking skin. I've also been drinking less water because I wanted to avoid going back and forth to the toilet.
The skin on my body has a lot of scars, and this year, I'd like to get rid of them. I'm very insecure to wear anything that shows skins around anyone, and I keep comparing my skin to others', and it's destroying my self esteem.
So starting from now onwards, I'm gonna wash my face everyday before I go to bed, drink plenty of water, and moisturize my body well to get rid of the flakiness (I'm too focused on my face, I often forget about my body) and that'll boost my self confidence, I hope.
4. save money
I buy things I don't need, I borrow money from friends and I take my sweet time paying them back, and it's costing me my friendships with them. I need to manage my finance better, list out the things I need to buy before actually going to the store, and walk past anything I dont need, confidently (pretty much like Rebecca Bloomwood). I need to set my saving goals every month, and make sure I dont spend them the next month, pay back everyone I borrowed money from, and stop borrowing anymore money. It just takes a little discipline, and let's pray that I can get through this.
5. improve my grades
It is what it is. procrastination is my biggest enemy and I keep giving in to it. I wait till the last minute to do everything, and when the deadlines come, I'm drowned in the overwhelming stress that I first let myself into, and in the end I never do any of them because it's far too late to get anything done at that point, so I just gave up and slept instead. That's the simplest way I could ever think of to explain my declining grades, and my ill-considered manner.
So instead of piling everything till the end of time, I will list the things I need to do, get organized, and get my priorities straight, and actually get things done, and out of my way.
Seems like it's too much, and impossible, but I'm nearly 24 and I need to change these bad habits, otherwise I'm just heading straight to self destruction and will die alone. Hopefully I'll manage to get all boxes checked, by the end of this year.
My 2019 goals
1. lose weight
2. eat healthy
3. get clear skin
4. save money
5. improve my grades
Let's get real. These resolutions aren't anything new. We hear about them all the time, I've had these as my new years resolutions every year, but evidently gave up half way into those past years. This year, it's gonna be, it should be, different. It just has to. I'm turning 24 this year, I'm gonna graduate soon, and I'll need to get my crap together before I can manage any possible future jobs or responsibilities I might have to hustle through.
1. lose weight
No, I'm not overweight. But I did get my body checked some time ago around end of December, and my body fat percentage has increased 10%. I can't say I don't know how that happened, because I've been slacking off and sleeping a lot. And yes, binge eating a lot of junk food too. So my goal this year is not to lose weight per se, but more to lose fat, and increase my body muscle to fat ratio.
I hate seeing myself in the mirror these days and I can't stand getting my pictures taken because they always turn out bad (especially when I'm standing next to my taller, thinner peers). Some people might say I need to practice self love, but I need to feel confident in my own skin in order for me to love myself. And I can't, and don't feel confident looking and feeling like a walking flabby piece of garbage.
by the end of this year, I should have more muscle to fat ratio, and I'm confident to say that my confidence will also follow. Look out people, I might have
2. eat healthy
I'm an instant noodle addict and I know it. I need to slow down on the instant noodle before I run out of them (I wont fly back home till the end of this year, so my Malaysian food stocks are my current prized possessions).
I started dieting early this year, eating only chickens (strips or grilled chicken breats) & salads consisting mainly of lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers & sometimes broccoli. I dont have any problem eating them without any dressing or condiment, but the moment I get a taste something that's remotely flavourful to me, I start binging, and all my dieting has come to waste.
so my plan is to eat, in moderate. I'll start measuring my portions, and I wont fill in my pantry with unhealthy junk food anymore anytime I do grocery shopping. Easy. I'll also try to fast as frequent as I can (to lose weight, to eat less, and to also prepare myself for the upcoming holy month of Ramadhan)
3. get clear skin
My skin is not so problematic, my face only breaks out when it's around that time of the month, or when I'm in immense stress. But I've been so stress lately that I just neglect washing my face and just went straight to bed, only to wake up to a flaky, gloomy dull, looking skin. I've also been drinking less water because I wanted to avoid going back and forth to the toilet.
The skin on my body has a lot of scars, and this year, I'd like to get rid of them. I'm very insecure to wear anything that shows skins around anyone, and I keep comparing my skin to others', and it's destroying my self esteem.
So starting from now onwards, I'm gonna wash my face everyday before I go to bed, drink plenty of water, and moisturize my body well to get rid of the flakiness (I'm too focused on my face, I often forget about my body) and that'll boost my self confidence, I hope.
4. save money
I buy things I don't need, I borrow money from friends and I take my sweet time paying them back, and it's costing me my friendships with them. I need to manage my finance better, list out the things I need to buy before actually going to the store, and walk past anything I dont need, confidently (pretty much like Rebecca Bloomwood). I need to set my saving goals every month, and make sure I dont spend them the next month, pay back everyone I borrowed money from, and stop borrowing anymore money. It just takes a little discipline, and let's pray that I can get through this.
5. improve my grades
It is what it is. procrastination is my biggest enemy and I keep giving in to it. I wait till the last minute to do everything, and when the deadlines come, I'm drowned in the overwhelming stress that I first let myself into, and in the end I never do any of them because it's far too late to get anything done at that point, so I just gave up and slept instead. That's the simplest way I could ever think of to explain my declining grades, and my ill-considered manner.
So instead of piling everything till the end of time, I will list the things I need to do, get organized, and get my priorities straight, and actually get things done, and out of my way.
Seems like it's too much, and impossible, but I'm nearly 24 and I need to change these bad habits, otherwise I'm just heading straight to self destruction and will die alone. Hopefully I'll manage to get all boxes checked, by the end of this year.
